One Feeling

I don't make sense.

     I'm simple and complex

          all at

               the same

                      Time.

I love with a Fire that Consumes

     but can retreat

          into Coldness

               more biting than

                    Frosty Steel Rails.

I am independent and ambitious,

     but terribly naive

         and Timid

               especially beyond

                    Brick Walls.

I want to know your story and share mine,

     but the Truth haunts me and bends me

          to Misery.

And I say that I'd rather be

     Miserably Aware

          than Blissfully Ignorant,

But following my Passions often leads to

     Less Awareness,

          not More.

And in this whirlwind of Complication,

     your presence is as a candle Flame,

          Constant and

               Unassailed by Doubt.

But what if that is merely an Illusion?

     And Flickering is just beyond

          the Horizon,

               Preparing to Commence Again?

I don't Know how to tell you to keep the Candle alight,

     only Promise you that my Passion,

          once ignited,

               Rages without Trepidation

                    Into the long Night.

Scared to say how I feel?

     Maybe.

          more terrified to Feel it,

               and in It,

                    be Lost ...

                         With no Recourse!

... Other than to Trust You ...

     and trust is running from me

          faster than I can catch Her ...

               never had the Wings to fly in the face of Truth,

                    And see Trust as Neverending.

To me It appears a Phantom,

     Something I may never catch,

          or stare in the Face,

                Or even Embrace.

You want Truth of Feeling?

     Well, here it IS:

* I only have one

*It's been trampled upon

*I miss you every night, every morning, and every interminable day

*It breaks my Heart when you are Away

*I want your arms around me when I fall asleep at night

*I want you to stay

*My fragile Trust thinks that everything about you is Right

*I want you to act as a Knight, virtuous and right, and, for me, fight

In ALL of these things,

      I am sure ...

          If this feeling Continues,

                    Love will Always Endure.